I am just sick to fuck of people telling me that everything wrong in their world is somehow connected to me. I can't seem to get a fucking break. I, daily, go out of my way to make someone's day better, and at the end of it, anything that is wrong is volleyed into my court.
People prefer to lie to themselves than face the truth.
Here's the truth. I give entirely too much of a shit about other people; not so much what they think 'of me'. I care about what happens to them. Every time I do, some ignorant shit has to happen. I am becoming disappointed in the human race as a whole.
So where is the lesson in being Fruitcake Flypaper? I don't have the slightest clue, but I am going to find the hell out.
There is nothing worse than someone telling you "Good Riddance." There is also nothing worse than being scolded for not being able to read someone's mind. There is little worse than walking around feeling like a giant pain in someone's ass. I think that is why I have a new apartment, a good view, and some recent dreams are coming to me out of the blue, according to the situation I find myself in now. I am apparently in the right place at the right time.
I don't know that I want to be with someone who is as selfish as this last one. I'm moving... and there was no help when I moved in, and no help when I moved out. She wants to tell me that I am the one not doing enough. There was some outside input tonight that made some sense, but there was also a switch flipped. It looked like a switch flipped in her, but I think it was a switch flipped in me. I don't want to be on someone else's emotional roller coaster. I want to feel wanted, just like everyone else. I don't want to be someone's little secret. I do want to be in a mutually understanding relationship. I am good. I have emotionally be removed from the last one for about 6 months. I want to be in a relationship that is even a semblance of peaceful. I mean a whole day of peaceful. No drama. No anger, no being shitty to one another for an reason. Stuff happens, but jesus, what I have seen in the last 10 months, I think the world is coming to an end, it is because the majority of the population feels entitled in some way, to project their negative self-thoughts off onto another. We're all just going to implode from the collective suck.
I am tired. NO. Fuck THAT. I am exhausted. Yet, but trying to do the "right thing" I am spending all of my time fucking around with someone who said G-R, and someone who is beginning to think it.
I'm still trying to work on why I keep attracting people with increasing levels of needs.
I have been running around with my ass in my hands for two fucking weeks, getting beaten down on a regular basis throughout the day, and at the end of it, everyone says Fuck YOU.
One of my friends has been single for 10 years. I am beginning to think that that is the best way to go. The only shit you get in a day is your own. Yep. <beer cracking> Yep.
People prefer to lie to themselves than face the truth.
Here's the truth. I give entirely too much of a shit about other people; not so much what they think 'of me'. I care about what happens to them. Every time I do, some ignorant shit has to happen. I am becoming disappointed in the human race as a whole.
So where is the lesson in being Fruitcake Flypaper? I don't have the slightest clue, but I am going to find the hell out.
There is nothing worse than someone telling you "Good Riddance." There is also nothing worse than being scolded for not being able to read someone's mind. There is little worse than walking around feeling like a giant pain in someone's ass. I think that is why I have a new apartment, a good view, and some recent dreams are coming to me out of the blue, according to the situation I find myself in now. I am apparently in the right place at the right time.
I don't know that I want to be with someone who is as selfish as this last one. I'm moving... and there was no help when I moved in, and no help when I moved out. She wants to tell me that I am the one not doing enough. There was some outside input tonight that made some sense, but there was also a switch flipped. It looked like a switch flipped in her, but I think it was a switch flipped in me. I don't want to be on someone else's emotional roller coaster. I want to feel wanted, just like everyone else. I don't want to be someone's little secret. I do want to be in a mutually understanding relationship. I am good. I have emotionally be removed from the last one for about 6 months. I want to be in a relationship that is even a semblance of peaceful. I mean a whole day of peaceful. No drama. No anger, no being shitty to one another for an reason. Stuff happens, but jesus, what I have seen in the last 10 months, I think the world is coming to an end, it is because the majority of the population feels entitled in some way, to project their negative self-thoughts off onto another. We're all just going to implode from the collective suck.
I am tired. NO. Fuck THAT. I am exhausted. Yet, but trying to do the "right thing" I am spending all of my time fucking around with someone who said G-R, and someone who is beginning to think it.
I'm still trying to work on why I keep attracting people with increasing levels of needs.
I have been running around with my ass in my hands for two fucking weeks, getting beaten down on a regular basis throughout the day, and at the end of it, everyone says Fuck YOU.
One of my friends has been single for 10 years. I am beginning to think that that is the best way to go. The only shit you get in a day is your own. Yep. <beer cracking> Yep.
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